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Feeling lonely again
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Feeling lonely again Every so often I go through this. I miss what I once had. I've written about this before. I've always preferred big and tall women with massive breasts. There's been a few. I lost my virginity to one, loved one, really liked one and lusted after a number of others. I miss them. More accurate I miss them and 'their' bodies. I think about a few of them a lot. Things I wish I had known, done differently or maybe tried harder. You don't know what you're doing. You have one you love, that hurts you BAD. You still think about her.You have another that may have gotten away. Only if you tried harder. Honestly, I know it wouldn't have mattered. You still wonder what if. She was only interested in being friends; nothing else. I told her how I felt a few different times. I told her I would never act on it unless she said to first(she had a really bad experience with a guy forcing himself on her). That never happened. I had one opportunity. I did the right thing. I didn't take it. She'd went out drinking with some of her girl friends. She called me to come over(she'd never done that before). I told her I couldn't. It wasn't right. She was a little drunk, lonely/horny and feeling sorry for herself. All her friends had someone or someone to go home to. She didn't. I know I wasn't what she wanted. We talked for a couple hours on the phone(she shared a few things, I know she wouldn't have otherwise). A few weeks later she wrote me an email. She thanked me for being a really good friend. I did the right thing. I always do the right thing. I still think about it. I really wanted to. What if I did. Would our lives been different? We still email each other on our birthdays and holidays. I think I miss seeing her the most: Tall, really long blonde hair, big thick body with really big boobs. She would almost always wear jean shorts, printed t shirts and flip flops. I would stand on my tip toes, She would still have me by 4 inches or more. She always smelled good. Her hugs were like heaven. Even if I never got to be with her; as I tell her, in that way. She's found someone. Moved away to a different state and got married; about 4 years ago. She's also put on 40 or 50 lbs. She was already in the 200's. She sends and posts photos. She has a belly going now and her face looks bloated. I'd still love to be with her in any way. I miss her. |
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Had to edit my post. The system doesn't like certain words; even though it was true. DO NOT TAKE WORDS OUT OF CONTEXT. READ AN UNDERSTAND Way to censor.
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